Demi Lovato's 2020 Grammy performance reduced me to tears.
Here you have an amazing professional singer that says "I feel stupid when I sing" ---- and she seems to feel no one hears her. It gives me the impression she feels her "gift" is meaningless/pointless in that moment.
We all have moments where we feel meaningless. I'm guilty of questioning myself on a regular basis as to who I think I am being a nurse practitioner, or a Mom, or anything else worthwhile. ...but I do it anyway. Because the truth is, we all matter. Our unique personality, skills, and gifts are priceless to this world. We just have to have the courage to use it and live it. Even if we are not perfect and we have to start our song over again and again.
It's ok to feel lonely or sad. Just try not to stay there. Try finding one person you can help. My guess is you won't stay down for long if genuinely helping others is your goal.
My goal is to help as many people as I possibly can. While I can fully admit sounding and feeling stupid tops the list of my fears, I'll do it anyway... because the reward I get when I see the look on someone else's face after I help lift them up, never gets old. It never will either.
Click to view the performance: https://youtu.be/AqtooBbxuaw